Plan on giving up...

I just plan on giving up...that's it. I have to teach my dad how to be human and how to accept reality. Who the fuck am I to do that? I thought he was the one who was supposed to be my role model, not the opposite way. I'm not wiling to go through with this because I'm not his teacher or anything, I'm his son. If his son knows more than him and needs to teach him, that's just pure sadness. I had to send him a message about respect, something that HE HIMSELF talked to us about for a long time. What else could I do? I can't do this every single time he makes a mistake, I just can't. And then at school, I can't do much either. I want to get things cleared up with this friend but she's got other people who she has to deal with. Sad part is, I'm pretty sure I'm a lot less important than all of them are according to her so she won't want to deal with me right now. I really don't know what to do...what am I still in this school for? I got no one, I honestly got no one. No one is willing to help out, and I can't deal with more than one thing at a time. Both of my good friends, who are also coincidentally my only friends, one of them is one of her closest friends so she can't do anything about it. My other best friend, he won't do anything about it.

..what am I still alive for?

I don't feel as if there's a need for me to be here anymore. My group of friends is split, I'm always jumping around trying to fit in with people and it's not working out. My own closest friends are dating each other and I barely spend time with them. The most I've done was watch a movie with one of them and skyping with the other one twice and texting every day, that's it. Main point is, it was all behind a damn technology screen, not in person. And now I can't trust my sister anymore. My dad lectured me about not driving fast and then my sister, being the smart one that she is, told him that I did an 80 on Lawrence Expressway. I had no fucking idea what she was thinking so now I'm still pissed at her for doing it. Then now I come back from having lunch with my dad and then my mom starts yelling at me for something I should have done. My dad kept calling me his youngest son's name (who I don't consider to be related to me at all in any damn way, shape, or form) and I once complained about it to him but his only excuse was because I don't live with him anymore and he sees his youngest son every single day. What kind of bullshit excuse is that? It's completely 100% bullshit. Then just before break started, on Friday, some junior flipped me off and I didn't even know the guy in person. So now...I pretty much have nothing left, why bother living still? I just wish someone could shoot me in the head right now, I might be happier that way, I honestly might be happier that way...I'm so sick of my life right now I don't know what to do with it...I hate living this way. I absolutely...hate it.

I feel like everyone's against me...

(sigh) I feel like everyone's against me. Still trying to settle something with a friend, then my mom yells at me yesterday and then my sister yells at me this morning. What more do I need? Most likely when I meet my dad today in about an hour or so, he's gonna start ranting shit about my mom and if we go meet our relatives, they're gonna start talking shit too. If that's the case, than pretty much literally everyone does have something against me. I really don't know what to do...I just want to go to sleep and not wake up forever...